The Christian church’s pastoral ministry has always been abhorred and scorned by all unregenerate people—both from within and without the church—ever since the Fall of Adam, in the Garden of Eden.
The devil is evil, but he is not stupid. He has always known that a weak ministry is the key to the wholesale destruction of all mankind. This is why he is diligent at setting up his own “pastors,” as much as he can.
God, on the other hand, has always designed His world’s (and particularly, His church’s) welfare to be directly proportioned to the extent and the effectiveness of the ministers He calls to their pulpits.
Therefore, it is perfectly understandable why the pastorate is such a difficult, and yet critically-important position.
Pray that God would continue to raise up His brand of pastors, so that they might serve His church well.
Your own spiritual well-being, and that of all future generations of Christians, depends on it.